I sat in service today with a heavy heart. My 35 year old nephew, on my husband's side, died this week. I found out Thursday, and between saving face for Grace and being strong for Dale, I don't think I really absorbed the loss until today. I wept for David's life as I remembered it. I wept for my brother in law, Donald, who now has to bury his eldest son on Monday. I wept...
And still... I worship...
As my pastor spoke on the "The Prostitute In Me"...I really thought about the woman's alabaster box and how she washed Jesus' feet unabashedly with fervor and want. I thought about....hair...she used her hair on his feet...JESUS... (my hair on your feet:o)....Okay...you are the Savior of the world...so...My hair is fair game :o)
The truth is ...it's not about my hair...It's about my guilt and shame and disobedience. My indiscretions try to block my worship. I'm not worthy. That much is true. But, it doesn't matter. My unworthiness is why I should and do worship. I can never repay the debt I owe, but my true worship is a symbol of acknowledgement and gratitude.
And so... I worship...
There are things I want to do...but what about the things I'm called to do? I am Powered by Purpose. That's the name I chose for my non profit because I believe that we are called to do specific things during our time here on this earth. My day job is but a stepping stone to being in place for the purpose of my higher calling. I look at the winter olympics and I can not imagine skiing in a skiathlon or figure skating for the gold. I have never skiied before. Yet, I see people walking (skiing, jumping, louging, skating) in their destiny. I may not understand your purpose or calling. It's not for the next person. Trust God with your destiny..with your purpose...with your life.
And...worship...
Have you been in true worship with God lately? do you worship with abandon and desire?
YAY GOD!
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Sunday, February 9, 2014
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